Grayscale

I won't do

The avenue, windswept, darkened by time
The whole damn street is wiped
Bled away the light
While the comets crashed overhead

Now it's like flowing backwards
Floating in a pool on a sunny day
When all I could see when I looked to my left
Was you

How it came to be? Reading too much
Into stars
And the day after Valentines

All life demands change
It's the nature of nature
Burning our bridges for us
Without even having to be asked

But I'd still dance with you,
Even if my card was full

In Case Of Emergency Break Heart

Would you rather be, should you have the choice;

A saint in a cathedral, singing praises unto God

Or would you like to be, a king of the high streets

Sweeping out the gutters on that straight and narrow road?

Don't look at me like that.

I hear that God bottles every one of our tears

He hears us when we call to him, when we say our prayers

I understand his wrath, his judgments, and that he doesn't change

On the just and unjust both he'll forever make it rain.

But I guess I just don't understand

What it is that makes a man.

Cause God bent down and he formed Adam from the earth

He breathed in deep and exhaled into him

Gave him a world that few would dare believe

And Adam like a man followed his God given Eve

Don't look at me like that.

It makes it hard for me to stand.

And I guess I just don't understand.

What it is that makes a man.

Cause it's hard to deny, you're the apple of my eye

And that sometimes the truth is less appealing than the lie.

Sixty Lines of Hate For Every 1 That Loves...

She took her watch off looked at me and said:
I thought we were just enemies,
That then became good friends.
What the hell happened, how did "we" begin?
I took her hands, I held her eyes and I said:

I fell in love when you weren't looking;
Every time you turned your head
Or shut your eyes my heart opened
And every time you closed a door
I smiled inside because I knew

There wasn't ever going to be anyone for me but you.

She took her time to clear her mind before she said:
How bout we just go out for coffee instead?
A perfect bookend to to a catalog of let's be friends
Another ending to another could have been.
I took her hands, I held her eyes and I said:

Sure.

The Tree

I hope you don't fail in the summer
When the sky is still burning with rage
Cause under the auspices of autumn
We will all get to tumble again

I hope when you open your letters
That it's with an unyielding hope
Cause no one should have to dread their own name
Or find they're surviving to cope

And the ladder unfurls
Rolls down the tree
A little bit of twine
Perfect for scraping, your knees

I hope when tomorrow comes I'm with you
We can plan out the day to day events
We'll spend a season in minutiae
Till all of our reasoning is spent

I find there's no tree
That can't be climbed
If you've a mind to it
So, if you want to climb the tree
If you want to climb with me
Then ladders be damned, scraped knees and all, you'll be fine.

Revolutions

The earth revolves around the sun
The stars are set in their place
The oceans are contained
The sky, the clouds, are as they have been.
The children are at play
Man and woman run around like ants
The trains run, planes fly
My world lays fallen and cracked
As it was the days before the day before
Today before and there after
The universe is in balance

Wherein We Catch Up With Sir Thomas McNulty On His Expedition Into Uncharted Forests On Foreign Lands

I'm lost.

All In All

All my,
All in good time
Is all but gone

The thick canister is rusting through
The acid from inside
Used to hold it tight
Burning from the inside out now all around
Spilling on the carpet, etching through the ground
It's all I can do to lose in private
Quiet, away from you

Now, to hide the truth...

Seeing dark spots clouding up my sight.
Tiny black holes trying to find
A way to cut down this my little light
Holding onto tightropes
Afraid of what is down below
And everything I do know
In a straight line

Now, to hide the times...

Stay away
From everything
Anyone you find
Who reminds you every night
All of my
All in good times
Were all but lies
All but not forgotten
For awhile
It was nice to smile.

Borne of Light

I don't hear your voice anymore
Not that I ever did before
It's just gone now.

And I want back what I never knew, but felt I should

Where you do hide
And where I want so badly to know
All those little things...

Was I right before I went wrong?
Was the circle just a que;
Standing in line
Waiting to get back to you?

I see your shadow,
And I wish to be there again
In the comfort of your branches

No more epithets,
No apologies,
I have, I was, I'm not
Now, can we please get back
To where we weren't?
Where I stopped?

For all have fallen short...
Notwithstanding, I wish to run.
Through the grass dipped in flecks of liquid gold
Chasing back through the tunnels now gone vague.
Till I find myself back in your fields of grace
Just a tumbler in the locked dawn

Down the Road

When you break,
Where do you break?
Like a thousand little pieces
Each with points where the wall gives way
When you break,
Where do you break?

Well I've spent the last few years
Breaking over you.
Bending over backwards
Twisting every which way to avoid the truth
I've spent the last few years
Breaking over you

Tell my love, should we never meet
I ran down the road, not across the street
Traded everything in a quiet flowing stream
Down the road, not across the street.

On An Open Ended Book Shelf

I tried to climb climb climb out of this world
The reality is better in my mind
The only truth I need
I can find in sleep
In escaping through the universe's cracks

She never really truly deeply believed
That the sky was blue
Says it's just a trick of the light
Playing with your eyes
She'd prefer to let the fantasy die

My open wound
A thousand tiny cuts
Through my thoughts
A delicate balance
Between caring
And forsaking
Between living
and escaping
Whether to capitalize
and lower case yourself

Shimmering
Shimmering once.
A blue cascade of light
The reality is better in my mind.

.1

The last time she said
'The last time I cried'
Kept going over it again
Until the moment the truth started to break
Like fountains springing in my mind
Blinding me to the truth I tried so hard to find
Still I get up one more time

And say...

It's like a crack, a mirror, a spiderweb
Crashing cascades of fractured thought
Inside a fractured brain
A mental note that could fill a library
And other assorted analogies
That it seems I just don't have the time for
Not today, not yesterday
Ask me tomorrow and we'll see

What we'll see, when we see
What even a blind man could see.

Murmurs

Sometimes I must
Admit I am remiss
As these lives tick by
And something doesn't click
Was I just lost
In some screwed up innocence
Tell me what's
The point of this?

Retraction

Where do I go anymore?
When I'm tired of all the voices
When I'm tired of seeing too much
When I can't even stand to watch the news

Your words are like poison
Your philosophizing takes me back to a time
When my questions were unanswered

Everyone's got to find their own way

Where do I go anymore?
When I just want to hide
From all the lights flashing
Through the windows at night

I'm tired, these days, all the time
I don't need any justification
Not when the question is why

Where do I go anymore;
When I just want to be broken?
And not have to think about putting myself together again
At least for awhile...

Everyone's got to find their own way

People

The night invested in him
Myriads of understanding

"I just want to run"

Breathe and be
Simple and quiet
Like the faintest whisper

"I'm tired of being alone"

Half filled glasses
Shattering the night
With their merry voices
Tinkling crystal
And exploding emotions

Till the days began to sing
He would say
She would say
Till the days began to twist and fade

No more a whisper,
No more anything.

Tangled Lines

Drift away with me
On a cloud of quiet shape
We will float away
Till we're forever lost in haze

Yeah, till time no longer has a face

Drift away with me
Like ripples on the sand
You can count on me
All your secrets will be safe

Yeah, cause I've no longer things to say

Oh, and in the morning
When they come out from the rocks
Search the mountain scapes
Find our ship has run aground

Yeah, but we're nowhere to be found

Drift away with me
And I'll drift away with you

Bristols At Dawn

I want to feel dark
With a cloud or two overhung
No little whispers
Of spring
Sprang
Sprung
I want to feel dark
When the lights are still on.

I want the thunder in my head
Crashing around my mind
No little peaks
Of sun
Shown
Shine
I want the thunder in my head
While it's raining inside.

Tempest and the Night Owls

Shudder stricken
Quiet nights of momentary lapse
The girl on the page burns
Dancing flame against the sky
Violent and murderous rage
Dawning in the painted frames
Of a fairy tale glass.
Etched by the broken heat
In her nightmarish place
She clings dear to anything
Cause there's nothing left to hold onto anymore
Least of all him

Picture Show

Turn out the light
My heart shines too brightly
And everywhere I go
I'm like a walking picture glowing

Turn out the light
My heart burns too brightly and
I'm afraid that you will know
When I'm a walking picture now showing
You

Wave

Five years to the day I woke up crying
Not really understanding why I was
I found out when the night fell
When the quiet broke my heart

It really should have been raining
But it never works out that way
When you're standing, left empty
By the phone call come and went

I dreamed last night that you were back
Like you'd gone away on a trip
I went to get you a book
One that we'd discussed
Then I remembered that you were gone
But the dream it didn't end
We all went on as we had before
Except that no one paid you any note
We left you just sitting there
A fading light in the corner of my room

Sunrise

Time so vast discouraging
Like the thrashing of the sea
Misting grey and crashing blue
Letting waves roll over you

What has lasted wasn't right
Like the holes torn into night
Park light trying to consume
Empty benches nature's pews

And I stand by
Waiting for the sunrise
And I stand by
Waiting for my sunrise

Just one last chance to see the colors shift and change
Before the emptiness of night has fully been washed away

In The Out Door

Caught in a familiar place

Our hero dances resolute

somewhere between kitchen accessories

and the freshly butchered steaks

the voices sounding overhead

singing one come one all

but our hero isn't listening 

He just stands in the aisle and says

Every underdog is a heretic

Flying in the face

Of convention and establishment

demanding he come in last place

there's no time for course correction

when you're slamming into the shores
Breaking down your own beliefs
Waltzing in the out door

A Little Nonsense

It was quiet over the city, which didn’t matter to me in the least as I was in the suburbs. Rain battered the outside of buildings, somewhere, but I was inside looking out at the warm winter night.

Maybe it was my sentimental heart, or maybe it was the tequila… Either way I had just one thing on my mind. Trouble is, I couldn’t think of what it was. Also I didn’t have tequila in the house so what I had drunk was a mystery to all.

Beside me the exercise bike had seen better days. Not many, mind you, but beggars can’t be choosers; sometimes. It seemed to be a metaphor for my life, always in motion but never going anywhere. Deciding this was too deep a thought, I quickly threw it out the window into the grass. It laid there looking back at me, hurt. I tried to tell it that I might one day have time for it, but not at the moment.

I was busy you see.

Off in the distance a bird was calling. Another bird answered, but the call was collect so it declined it. Ah, to be young and a blue jay.

Suddenly I remembered what it was that I’d forgotten; the thing I’d been trying to remember all along. Quickly I hobo’d my way onto the train of thought which was just leaving the station. As I sat in the car watching the progression of mind meeting relevance, I was startled to see that everything connects one day to the next. It was a humbling realization.

One that I wanted no part of.

An instant I jumped from the moving train, remembering just in time to tuck and roll, and came up safe in the place between thoughts. It was all at once empty and full. I tried to think of something. Anything. Alas, in such a place no thought exists. Madness descending, I quickly leaped out of the way, landing back in my flat beside the exercise bike.

As things had turned out the way they had I decided there was only one thing left to do. So, taking hold of the stationary bike, I rode off into the night.

A Murder

Last letter on the left,
Typed in a time of silence
His thoughts cold to the page
"My life needs an evacuation plan"
Voices echo dimly
In the sunlit halls of a child's memory
Where building blocks
Abc'd their way into being more than a foundation
While the man sits with coffee
Cigarettes and lighter for companionship
Lights up and mouths quietly
"All my life I've wanted to go home"
But no one listens to the words
Of children and old men
Except for the birds
That circle above.

Gloria

Sudden overwhelming feeling and collapse
Like another Sunday crossword covered nap
The swirling hue in the cupboards
Beckoning me onward
Still I can't quite seem to fathom what I've grasped

It's just a trick of the light
I'm told
There's nothing there that wasn't where it was;
Or where I left it
Just another thing that comes with getting old

Sepia painted twilights in repose
Unanswered letters spoken is softened prose
The world keeps dimmer
Despite the brilliant glimmer
That hung upon the garden where she rose.

Dark and 20'd

Sure he hears her heading up the stairs
But there's nothing really left to say
Anyway
Might as well go ahead and stay

Floorboards creak as she makes her way
Through a bedroom darkly she creeps
All alone, she wants to scream
So it seems
She might as well just go to sleep

On the back roads of the world
We always seem to make our homes
Trying hard to keep ourselves apart
Turns out
It's just another way to break your heart

Soliloquy

So maybe today I sing out of tune
But one day I'm going to hit every note
One day I'll never run out of air
My lungs will never give out
Soon I'll sing and shout
And feel a hundred years in my throat
A blast out in the heavenly choir
Putting all the angels to shame
So maybe today I can't write the music
I hear when I'm alone
One day my heart will shed this body
And I'll travel the speed of light
My song will rise from deep within
And be written into the night
And I will finally become
The song I've always wanted to write

Lit

I'm falling in love
With a girl I don't know
Haven't seen her
Haven't heard her
But I know she's there
She's just out of reach
A whispered verse
For a shadow...

Light lines brightly
The dim night finding her out
Time tries
But I can't help thinking about
The girl in her shadow

That One

Twenty-seven
Nothing makes sense
Nothing's made sense
Since I was nine years old and slitting my wrists
Twenty-seven
Nothing makes sense
Nothing's Made sense
Since I was seventeen and wished the world would end.

It's just the game of life my friend
Could we go back and start all over again?

No wait...

Please hang up and try your party again
The disconnect is bringing back the end
Or so you say
So long, the end.

Twenty-seven
Nothing makes sense
Nothing's made sense
Since I was twenty-two and swallowing pills
Twenty-seven
Nothing makes sense
Nothing's made sense
Since I was twenty reaffirming my vows

Is the struggle worth the pain?
Is there nothing left to say?

No wait...

Please hang up and try your party again
Dial the number but it's all in vain
You're gone away
Until the end...

Hurricane

I hear you can't go home again
If you had one to begin...
Another start of another end
Living on the rend

They say the storms on Venus
Are not something to be missed
The lightning shines the brightest in
The darkest grasp of space

And so I sing a soft goodbye
To familiar satellites
That hung around my neck so long
The view eclipsed my sight

Said, you're right
And there's nothing like
Flying
Into the face of a storm
Flying
And not coming home

13

When I look into her eyes
It rains

Sometimes I just don't want to be
Sometimes I see
Something out of nothing

Never before have the stars

Been quite so bitter to me
Never has the moon
Shone so hatefully

Soft and gentle piano
Follows
Where ever I go
As if every player on earth
Seems to know

When I look into her eyes
I wonder where she is

Beautiful and gentle
Is this night
Soft as silk
Floating on the air

When I look into her eyes
I know there's nothing there

Only rain

Mirrors

Everyone that I fall for reminds me of you
That's why I stopped falling in love
It's just not worth it if you're not falling too

Same eyes but a different look
Same lips but a different kiss
Same fingers but a different touch

And there's a pretty girl sitting across the room
Mouthing words I could have written
Should have written
Words I just can't say
To your mirror

Knotawordle

Little sister
My little Sister
Big little sister
I can still see you
In the back of the room

We used to play such childish games
Race after rainbows, through the falling rain
The inside jokes have started to fade
Like dust settling over words on a page
We wrote, we sang, we laughed
But time just moved too fast

Little sister
My little sister
Big little sister
Time just slips away
Till only thoughts remain

Lives Before

Sometimes I still feel it should be possible.

15 years old and completely lost to a summer that quickly flew by. My time had revolved around Lake Ontario that year. I loved to swim. Loved to crash around through the waves; feel the water flow through me. I swam there with my nephews when they visited, and when they left, I swam alone. But as much as I loved swimming, it was the fall I waited for.

There's a little dock that juts out from a quiet inlet. It's in a whispery town with large farms and fewer people. The dock is formed of pressed gravel and concrete. It should have been ugly -was ugly. But that's what made it so beautiful. Man made peninsula that was completely alien to the surroundings.

I liked to sit there and watch the lake. The rhythmic flow of the waves nimbly dancing across the shore line or crashing against the rocks when the wind picked up. My head's always been a mess but sitting there I seemed able to blank out my thoughts and just be still. It's been a long time since I've had that luxury.

Out a short distance from my gravel perch, in the shallows, was a grouping of concrete blocks. They had dumped large slabs of concrete all along the edge, most likely to prevent people from going to far out. It seemed likely that a few blocks had just got away. It was random but in my mind I built order from the chaos. To me the blocks formed the shape of a giant.

I came to refer to my favorite spot as 'the stone giant's bed.' I even wrote a poem about the giant that lay in the water, waves lapping over him; moss growing on the sides. It was a Christian allegory. That's just the kind of kid I was. I was raised a Christian by my mom but from a young age I had begun reading the bible on my own. More so I believed it without being told.

Years later my experiences with various churches and different ministers who obviously didn't read the book their faith was based on, would contribute to my backsliding. It was only temporary though as I never stopped believing in God. My continued existence seemed founded in a miracle. Eventually I was able to move past my problems with individuals.

Still, sitting on a pier at that time, I knew nothing of those issues. I knew I loved the bite of the autumn air, mingled with the misting of the spray. The flecks of white churning in the dark swell. The water was cold, you could tell without touch, but there was something pure about it.

One cold and overcast day, I happened to be on the dock as a storm moved in. At first the rain was light. As the clouds rolled over the lake, pushed by heavy winds, the rain began to beat down. It was ice cold and each drop felt like a needle against my face. Yet I stood there watching. Looking out at the waves bowling along. Little blue hills on a lake, gathered up and flung violently against the shore.

I could feel the power from above and below. The air was electric and alive. I felt raw and tempestuous. As I stared out into the lake it seemed like I should be able to dive into the water; my atoms diffusing with waves, changing me till I myself became a wave, flowing in and flowing out.

I knew of course this wasn't possible.

I left a few minutes later completely soaked to the bone. Somehow I managed to avoid coming down with a cold. I went on as usual, completely unchanged by the experience. There were no profound revelations that I can share with you. Well, other than that it's nice to have somewhere warm to change out of wet clothes.

Some things, like thoughts of transformations are better left to the realm of fantasy. Still, every now and then, when I happen to pass a lake and catch the sunlight reflecting just right off the tips of the waves; sometimes, just sometimes, it still seems like I should be able.

Cutting

I don't wonder anymore
'Where's my flying car?'
I'd be content just to hit the open road

I don't need another lesson
In the things I can't attain
I've reached the age of settling for 'ok'

Still I tell myself
I'll find myself
To the mirror every morning
What's a little lie caught between friends?
I couldn't take much more
Aching for
The things I can't achieve
Looking in my eyes I can truly see
With a friend like this who needs an enemy?

Crossfade

Somewhere out there
Someone's whispering to me
Turn up the volume

Cause I see right now
How in silence I've found
My on call room

Is there a frequency...
Something I've been missing?

Cause somewhere tonight
The radio buzzes to life
With a heartache

And I flip the switch
Turn the dial away
For my own heart's sake

Is there something, that I've missed?
If I change can I find...

A frequency of happiness

Flawed

Hair like glass
Blown by the sunlight
Embers and ashen
In her eyes
Each of her movements
Graceful and fluid
Like the edge of a curb

Under fast falling rain
Her soul is exquisite
An inspired piece
Kind and sincere
With just the spark of a queen
She's everything I should want
Everything I could dream
But she just isn't you
So she's just not for me

Threshold

Even though the scars are many
I feel like I've seen the light
Feel like I've found a threshold
That's held up against tonight

The stone that built my shelter
Harbors many safe within
Against the raging of the surface
And the axle's deadly spin

He's held on though I've fought him
Trying to let myself drown
But he somehow always brings me around

Lifts me up and puts me on solid ground

;)

Nobody Stops to ask the boy
Why he quietly acts like an idiot
Is it self esteem or plagiarism,
Or the back end of a ruler
That struck him hard to his inches?

Feeing is for cowards
And no one even thinks to guard themselves
We're a world wide floating emoticon
Perched on the tailslide of last week's news

Don't yell it...
Turn your caps off
If you can hold on
Hold on
Hold to it and think
The future isn't always that

Seems like I heard your voice
In the rustling of pages
It's all I can do now to sit here
And think about what was; what wasn't,
And what damn well never will be.

32

A simple little dance
We shared once before
But that was
That was in the way back machine


I'm rarely sleeping
These days when I dream 
I know I'm just
Just a thought away from you


I can almost feel those old songs
We listened to in the pouring sun
I don't want to fight it anymore
You always kept me grounded;
Tethered, down to earth
Now my head's forever in the clouds
Lost in you

Peter and the Wolf

Peter stands before the curtain
Sees her from the corner of his mind
He's so polite
He's always so shy

The curtains lifting, there behind them
The wolf struggles, pulling at his binds
The wolf survives
The wolf cannot die

He can't find the words to tell her how he feels
The wolf wants out.

Strips of paper, pencils, plaster,
Red ink penning words he's tried to rhyme
He's so polite
Always so kind

Piles lining paper baskets whispering
'Pete, the wolf's inside
He still survives
The wolf cannot die'

He can't find the words to tell her how he feels
Thinks he'll die alone

Susan watches silently
Fighting feelings she tries so hard to hide
She's so polite
She's always so shy

And as the curtains falls away from behind her
The wolf wants out.

Vestibule

See the light shine brightly

From the corner of her eye

There is something still running there

Something she's held on to

Even as hope seems to fade

Footsteps shuffle around

Making notes she'll never see

Telling tales 

That have nothing to do 

With a life lived

She smiles wide and states convincingly

I'll soon be found burning bright

My fire screaming through the night

You'll sing my name as I pass by

My light eclipsing

Shadows that fell over me

And I have no doubt now

The Score

There is music hidden within the night
Chords struck
As the moon whistles its light along the tree tops
The swaying of branches
Echoing beats
That are buried deep inside the wood
Ripples across the pond
Sing vibrato
Crashing into cat tails
That stand tall
Playing their strings to a crowded house
I feel the anxious fluttering
In the piccolos flapping their wings;
Hear the thundering bass
In the longing of their hearts
I see the music played to a score
Written across the stars
For all to follow along
And I lay back
In the grass content just to be
A note in the night.

Wave 5

I see it all so clearly now
The lines painted and left to dry
A fistful of quarters for my youth
A 1000 ways to watch the world die

I was the one always swore I knew
Time was not something to mess around
I should have died when I was 3
But I somehow never hit the ground

Now I'm standing here
All cowardice and collapse

We sit and drive the TV set
Of late nights with Stephen Fry
Where Are They Now: Angels of mine
You know I never said goodbye

Oh now,
I feel lost and out of reach
The sky is falling down
All over the world
The weather vane's hopeless
Couldn't find anything to last
The world keeps moving
And I'm spinning
Way too fast

Letting Go

My world slips away
A thousand miles from yesterday
What I've got left to give
I've sown in fields of haze

Whispers lie to me
Shadows slowly gathering
If I could just grab hold
Of my last big dream

And the night it crawls by
As the stars suffocate brightly
With their life

But I'll tell you tonight
If not in person, in a note,
With laughter in my ears,
That hope's been killing me
And now I'm letting go
Letting go

In Perpetuity

Don't worry 'bout the words that you're saying
Saying, I promise not to tell

I'm feeling ageless tonight

We feel the same
In one word alone
In three, you and I

I don't have to be anything
You can stay the same

Flesh, blood, and everything in between

We can be together
You and I
We can be so alone
Together

Till we're all alone again.

Token Valentine's Day

A million voices laughing loud
And I'm alone again tonight
Don't talk of fishes in the seas
Don't whisper words of Valentines

And it's 38 steps
From my front door
Completely sober
Making my bed
On the floor
Falling over

Don't tell me that it's the kind of night
For staying under the covers
When I know it's not the time
For recovering lovers

It's not the time for us
I guess it never was

Temerate

I walk, you walk too
Side by side but not together

Is it wrong to remember,
To want to be something more than now?
Is it wrong that I still feel our youth,
And wish I was walking with you?

I see, you see too
But it's with different points of view

Is it wrong to feel this,
To want to go back the heartache?
Is it wrong not to turn away?
Cause I see you these days,
Sideways.

22

She sees
She feels the pain
And when her daughter tries to ask her
She says, 'it's hard to explain.'
Cause she feels,
With out.

Late night
Tap dance
Old movies, with romance

Scanning the channels for a sign

She says, 'if I can just find the right program;
There's a piece of myself I want back.'

But there's nothing on

She sings;
Closes her eyes
And when the sun starts raining down on her
It's been a short night
She's with out
And she knows now

She says, 'if I can just find the right man;
There's a piece of myself I want back, from him.'

But there's nothing on
Nothing good is ever on.

[Poem] Christmas Eve

Sleep is just a dream
Patient and endless on an early Christmas Eve
Every little head to its pillow
Every little soul under the tree
Thoughts and prayers wrapping presents
Daring children just to peek

Sleep is just a dream
Ornaments pulling down the stem
Painted silhouettes to remind us
Saviour born in Bethlehem
And the star up on that sits atop
Meant to take us back again

Sleep is just a dream
For a child who's listening
Hoping just to hear the sounds
Of those merry sleigh bells ring
And for the parents who are also
Though they're hoping secretly

And when the morning finds the children
Who are waking happily
All the parents know quite sadly
That sleep is just a dream

Bleach

She's a thousand broken down distractions

That I just don't seem to feel anymore

And when I close my eyes to think of us

I'm alone on sun lit shores

And I know now we were just passing by, casting shadows on each other's hearts

Still I wish I'd stayed a little while longer in the dark

Friendly Fire

The silence builds
As they circle round
The two tight lipped and crashing
Breaking all apart

She looks at him
With a smile in her eyes
Mouthing obscenities
He's mouthing back

And she's telling him
Pretty girls make bad friends
And they're better off
Better never than
And she's telling him

Sleep is the Enemy

Fear
The darkness sweeping over me
I
Remember like I was seventeen

Try not to blink
Don't get cozy

What's this taking a third my life from me
Pulling shadows up from somewhere deep

Clocks
Reminding me what's going by
I
Remember like I was twenty-five

What's this taking a third my life from me
Lurking somewhere waiting patiently
It's got to be
My enemy

Sidewalk
Turn lock
Waiting patiently
Drip drop
Tick Tock
It's my enemy

Scarlight

I swept the cobwebs from the shutters

Moved the furniture around

Tried to feng shui up the house

Trying to spin chaos into peace

Just wanted to clean up my mind

Have a fighting chance tonight

When your shadows wake me from sleep

I'm living in the scarlight

Went for a jog when I woke at eight
Had a grapefruit and health shake
Getting back in shape

Find that slimfast state of mind

Miles and miles trying to run away
Leave you far behind
Til you cover me again tonight

Help Them See

the rain Helps me think
when I'm staring into Evening skies
sitting back Listening to the shadows speak
dancing away from People onto tree-lined streets

and so what if Tomorrow is awake
tonight we stand Here and dream
tonight we are Everything Morning
could never hope to be

slip down, See the sea
of Endless faces taking in
the endless beauty that Eclipses we

Dizzy in the Hue

Blue starlight
Massive flames of carnal expression
Death and remembrance
Heart and ambassador to the ever never we were so sure

Daily rethink
Blessed and we
Like a silver statuette
Dormant dominance
Shaking minds like trees
Endlessly

Here we go
One more tragic happy scene
See where paint flecks away
Never quite seeing what we weren't meant to be

The stars are the limit
Find your way
Flying out today
Catch those cold unending seeds
In the scratched out surfactant sky

ellipse

I didn't feel this at 17
I guess I didn't know just what it would mean
New applications of a word
You think you knew but then you learn
The only thing
You'll ever need
Is in your
Happy agony

Will I still feel this at 39?
When happily ever becomes the dotted line
New applications of a word
Could there still be some that I haven't heard?
The wind it blows
Away the cares
As she pulls a leaf
From her hair

Steepled

Through what hole can my soul escape?
Climbing down the stairs blindly
A spiral from above
But all I see is the straight line
Carrying me away
From
All
I'd
Care to Be

All these people
Faces the world has seen
And will see again
Never remembered
After the second generation
Come and gone again
On a Tuesday afternoon

I hope,
To one day
Gleam from the stars,
Where they really shine
And why they all
One day
F
A
D
e

Through what hole can my soul escape?
Trapped beneath
Inside this jar of clay
Screaming to the sky above
For the light to shine;
to cut an opening,
to my eyes
So I may see
The
S
P
Ire
Spiraling no more around me

[Poem] You and I

Love in the time of my last suicide
Where my end justifies the means each time
Always leaves me wishing for a last refrain

Born again in a cold November
Raised in the city by a kindly stranger
Just to find that I'd arrived too late

You and I are always yes and
You and I are always yes and
You and I are always yesterday

Woke too late, just to find you sleeping
A handmaiden's daughter barely speaking
Married to a man who was married to the game

I spoke quietly, you don't remember
How it was that last December?
You just shrugged and then you turned away

You and I are always yes and
You and I are always yes and
You and I are always yesterday

Maybe there will be tomorrow
Maybe we will be tomorrow
Maybe there will be no tomorrow

[Poetry] Slowly I turned

The show must go on
From a father without a son
Funny men aren't meant to cry
When the radio's turned on

Who's on first?
Baby don't fear
Wherever you are
You're going to hear

When the starlight shines
You're the only thing on my mind
Gonna run away with vaudeville
Gonna take my time

The show must go on
That's how it's got to be
Wherever he is tonight
I want him to hear me

[Poetry] Josephine

Josephine, my love
My sweet
Don't you understand?
Can't I make you see?
This is all just a dream

Josephine, my love
My dear
There's nothing to see
Nothing to fear
There's nothing here

Hold your head high
Take a deep breath
Run your fingers over the sky
Let go of the rest, and say goodnight

[Poetry] Recompense

This all seems so familiar Do we need all this extra weight? Buried, so we should leave it behind. Just leave me behind Dance caliber, sweet blue, behind her eyes Diamonds on cheek, sparkle and shine He holds her softly, rocking where they lay Light shifting, bright to ashen grey Tin shoulders rise and fall Stand to meet the coming tide The flow of tears that tear away The tiers and ties that'd bind and sway This all seems so familiar Do we need all this extra weight? What's buried should stay buried. Just leave me... One more refrain, before we leave One more, one less we

[Poetry] Shadows of Eternity

I am cut
Walking on the earth above you
Walking on the sky above me
You are deep

We are
All that we were ever meant to be
We are
Shadows on eternity

I am cut
Laying here all alone tonight
Laying here quiet by my side
You are sleep

We are
All that we were ever meant to be
We are
Shadows of eternity

[Poetry] 20

Doesn't matter
Doesn't matter what you try
Doesn't matter cause when you die
You'll find it's not the what, but the why


Little laden, onion lady
Dangling from a line
Heaven waiting for a sign
'It is mine. It is mine.'

Doesn't matter
Doesn't matter who you know
Doesn't matter 'cause when you go
It's not who you know, but who you don't

[Poetry] 19

At 10:45 it was worth it to note
That I was barely alive, I was barely afloat
It took all my drive just to get me here
All my life just to make it clear

By 12:41 I was in a state
Sitting table crossed from your flowering hate
You told tales out of nursery to keep me blind
Tales of delinquency to make up my mind

In 2033 we'd watch the future unfold
But if we're still alive I'd be 50 years old
Sitting with you
Letting you talk
Keeping my eyes
Glued to the clock

18

I'm sorry if I didn't dare
To say what's on my mind
Sorry if it takes twice as long
To circle round the sun now

I know where I went wrong
I swear I thought we were
But oh, no
Friends are forever
I think that's written in stone
Believe me
I know

I'm sorry if you thought
I didn't think of you
Sorry if everything moves
Just a little more slowly now

17

Hey the world might end next month
Then again I might just take a trip
See what's over there

Fallin' back
Into quicksand
Drowning in an afterthought

Hey the world might spin back in time
Or we could just sit in for awhile
See what's on TV

Swimmin' through
Dark matter
Becoming one wave afterthought

Hey,
Dimensions open everyday
Portals happen
Black holes rip a part of life
But let's flip through the channels
See what else is on

Scopophobia

Over in the corner, what do I see?
A little shadow figure
Sulking miserably
His head, his heart, his body darkly
His eyes that sadly follow starkly
Have never looked upon the light
Have never filled up with delight
A somber life for one to lead
To exist but to never be
Never be, and what's more
Never lived, and never born

Over in the corner what do I see?
A piece of the picture
A sad kind of dream
What's now, what wasn't, what will never be
What was is only a dim memory
Trappings of scarlet lining the skies
Thoughts like telarian, trapping the mind
Forever broken at the seams
Like a disenchanted dream
A pitiful half painted scene
From an artist who has gone to sleep

Mistake

Maybe we made a mistake
But at least we made it together
Misery loves company
And it makes me feel better
Just to say

Tonight all the stars
Might rain down on us
And the oceans may wave
Even as they rush
Buildings might topple
And mountains break
But at least we're together
In our mistake

Maybe we blew it
But it's alright this time
Because to err is human
And together is divine

[Poetry] Over You

Wake up and I go 'round again 

Same old, same old 

Ask me how I've been of late 

Same old, same old 

Returning the questions to you 

Same old, same old 

Same old motions we go through 

Same old, same old 

I've been warned and warned myself 

Thought it through over and again 

Everything says it's time to move on 

Everyone says the end's the end 

Time to just accept the truth 

But in truth, I'm over getting over you

[Poem] Where the world was

The water tastes dry
As she sits on the park bench
Mouthing words no one hears
Tears filling her green eyes
Cigarettes for safety belts
Stop her from crashing into him

They float away

Paper-mâché whales
Swimming through stars
And the backseat of cars

Silver on the edges of leaves
Leaves the tree and falls
Spiraling down into her soul
Where she feels his hand
Feint whispers beg thoughts
Of cloudy nights and six year olds

A Thousand Nights

So long, old familiar ways
Gentle touch, softer grace
Ushering, the brand new day
Smile fading from my face

Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand smiles
To a thousand-thousand sunrise
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes
Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand cries
To a thousand-thousand deep sighs
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes

So long, to the old times
Memory stained cheeks
Now begins the forever
Meeting only in our dreams

Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand smiles
To a thousand-thousand sunrise
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes
Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand cries
To a thousand-thousand deep sighs
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes

Standing

there are no more moments
and I feel this would be a good time
time is always too short
when you're running out of it
a lot like sugar in that respect
always in the pantry until you're ready to cook

i guess I'm trying to set straight
records I don't actually care about
whom did what to who
or who did who
matters not in the grandless scheme of far out things
matters even less to those involved
but sometimes the best conversations
are like tires spinning in the mud

i should probably start over
in most cases I probably would
but the earth is spinning further from the sun every year
and I'm just trying to keep my bearings
til I'm ready to fly off
or would that be falling?
there's no bottom or top
so I guess what I'm asking is
if I stand down, am I standing up?

[Poem} Dying Alone

I hate the things I've become in your eyes
The guilt in my lungs dripping with lies

Don't stand too close to the fanning flame
The little flickers tearing down my faith

I'm not a shadow now, I know I'm just a fake
Ashamed of, and always counting on my breaks

You don't condone this; condemn me...
But I'm a runaway, running far away

I hear them say to me:
You'll die alone
But that don't scare me
Cause I know I'm going home
The only thing that really freaks me out
Is the thought of living a lifetime without...

Without your presence
In my life

You can't condone this; don't condemn me please
I'm just a runaway, who wants, to run
Away from me

Don't want to live, alone...

[Poetry] The Steady Decline

Afraid, to make a change
You stay there
Waiting for someone to reach out
To meet you
Halfway is better than seeing
The whole truth

Gotta turn around
Just a slap in the face now
Gotta face facts
After all, roads you've been down
Starting to make you see
You're on the steady decline

Deluding yourself
Into thinking
Your ambitious and chasing down
All of your dreams
Confusing your goals
With fantasy

Gotta turn around
Just a slap in the face now
Gotta face facts
After all, roads you've been down
Starting to make you see
You're on the steady decline

[Poetry] Never ending Night

I hear you speak,
So quietly
From out of a dream
Just out of my reach

The end is past
Sometime last week
And kept on going
While I was asleep

I sit back in the dark
Seeing through my eyelids closed
Hoping to wake up
From bitter sweet abandon
Into tranquil repose
To look up from my bed
And see the sun shining bright
A quick and painless death
For a never ending night

The stars they shine
Like echoes of peace
A cancer of hope
I'm remembering

Patiently, a whisper,
Haunting me
A night never ending
The world walking sleep

[Poem] Shadows of the Heart

The powder burns
The lights in my eyes
I see the beauty threatening my mind.
The sky's on fire
A war of peace
The faces mingling, happy and grief.

This blade is dull
Can't cut through the mesh
Just leaving chem trails
Deep in my flesh

The night is right
Gentle and warm
Can't recconcile, the pain in my heart
I see you 17
I see you tonight
Like fireworks staining my mind
You're still there

This blade is dull
I can't break the skin
Hearts and regret
Can't cut away the sin

This blade is dull
My mind has no rest
Just leaving track marks
Burried in my flesh

[Poem] Love and Sleepwalking

These days I feel over all the time
Same line I tripped last life
Can't quite break away
From the infinite finite

Sometimes I always dream alone
In the dark
In the sky
In the shadows
In your eyes
I guess it's a rythm I never quite beat
Never got the hang of falling
In and out of love and sleep

I'm always in the way of myself
My mind a burden on my health
Feels like it did last night
Riding the infinite finite

Somewhere I'm not quite there
Falling forward
Falling back
Falling silence
Fall in cracks
I guess I never got the hang of talking
Wading through the waking
In and out of love and sleepwalking

So Cliche

Whisper sweet nothings for a moment or two
The end, the beginning
The world stops for you
Tell me you'll love me 'til the end of time
Swim me an ocean or a mountain to climb, so high

Oh I feel so high
The breath of the wind
Lovers and friends
Let's begin
To engage
A nightly romance
It all seems like fate

And as I stand here in the falling cliche
I stop to cry out your cliche
Trying hard to find the right words
Though I can right words
They all seem to say
They all seem the same
So cliche

Hold your head high, and keep your chin up
The roses, the letters
They all point to love
The stars speak of soulmates, and not just some fling
Let's live for today cause tomorrow may bring, endings

Oh I see the ending
The credits will role
The screen will fade out
And you know
All the lights
Will awaken us all
From dreams back to life

And as I stand here in the falling cliche
I stop to cry out your cliche
Trying hard to find the right words
Though I can write words
They all seem to say
They all seem the same
So cliche

I don't know what lies beyond the day
I'd change but the world'll stay the same
All of my words inked from my heart
Giving life to the art
They all seem the same
They all seem to say
So cliche

Sadness

Can't look her in the eyes
Don't know where to start
Pick up the knife
Place it back in my heart

She's pretty like sunlight
Dancing through rain
Laid back and laughing
Over darker days

I'm growing older
Time in my way
Second chances hold nothing
Dreams only strain
The shadows of midnight
Washes out the day's
And I'm keeping only thoughts
That drive me far away

Take a step back
Further from grace
Sometimes salvation comes
In the growing space

I'm growing older
Time in my way
Second chances hold nothing
Dreams only strain
The shadows of midnight
Washes out the hue
And I'm keeping only thoughts
That drive me far from you

Best of the worst of times

I heard your father left
Your mother's getting sick
I heard your dog ran away last night
I know the pressure's mounting
Can hear your heart pounding
It's ok, I've got a shoulder, cry

Called me up late last night
Said she didn't know what was wrong with life
Said through tears, she'd be alright
But I wouldn't hear it
Said she shouldn't be alone, when she's like this
Said I would be there in a little bit

She's so much prettier
When her masscara's ruined
The tears offset her eyes
With a perfect blue
So for better or worse now baby
Here's to bad times, may they
Always stay

She says, she says

She says,
I never bought into this world
How could I be comfortable
On a planet that doesn't have cup holders?
And sometimes I feel so much madness in the air
I have to get in the car and drive nowhere

She says,
This life is too confusing
How am I supposed to get the hang
Of an existence that has no manual included?
And sometimes I feel so suffecated everywhere
I have to turn up the white noise, so I can get some air

abstained dress

Bury my head in the lone prarie
Someone's in the mirror and he's looking at me
I think there's something dark in his eyes
And I don't like what he's saying 'bout mine

Mother's not home, daddy's not here
Just a balsa wood ceiling and an ice cold beer
This old girl don't care where we go
In the back of the van at the punk rock show

Someone said to me the other day
Something about her daughter was late
Remember when etiquette's in doubt
Tip your high school sweet heart on your way out

Bury my mind in chemistry
Someone's in the mirror and he's looking at me
I don't think I like what I see
And I don't think he cares for me

By Night [poem]

Eyes bright
Big as the starlight
She shines down
And I drown.

In her face
I get lost in amaze...

Sweet but, bitter the seasons that come to pass
Composing, whistful lyrics for all that has
Something like to the skyline
Born again every night

Bright eyes
Fueled by twilight
They lie down
And I drown.

In her face
I get lost in amaze...

Retracted

When's it ever going to end?
When will I get to breathe again?
I just want to call it quits.
I just want to be numb to it.
When will this end?

What if failure's all I have?
What if that's my only friend?
I don't want some cosmic truth.
I don't want to pine away for youth.
What if it never ends?

Sitting, watching a moth
On a lazy nighted window sill
Powder dust for wings
Just hungering for the light
From the outside in
From the inside I
From the outside in
I'm on the inside out

When will it be enough?
When will they leave me alone?
I just want to sit for a moment
I just want a second of peace
When will I get my relief?

What if I don't want to finish
All of my bad deeds?
What if I just want
So desperately?
What if I hand out
All that I've dealt in?
What if I give you
Everything to
Quit?

Aberration

In another world
The table's turned
You're in love
I the one that spurned
In another world
We've called it quits
A messy divorce
Forever split
While in another world
We've not yet met
We'll never meet
That's the end of it
In another world
I'm killing you
While in another world
You're killing me too.

But somewhere
I know
That we are
Are so
In love

In another world
It's suicide
You'll know me only
As a day's headlines
In another world
We're on the street
A quick glance
Is all we'll see
While in another world
It's your wedding day
I'm the minister
As you're given away
In another world
I'm haunting you
While in another world
You're haunting me too

But somewhere
I know
That we are
Are so
In love

Behind the Covers

Just cause there are bridges
In life to be crossed
Doesn't mean
You're not better staying where you are

Just cause you don't need
Anyone's advise
Doesn't mean
That they're either wrong or right

The earth turns
To keep you going round
You have to stand
So they can knock you down
Fight hard
But not all battles can be won
They told you lies
So they could keep you young

Just cause the heart
Knows what it wants
Doesn't mean
You're better moving on

Just cause they're all
Leaping off the edge
Doesn't mean
It's right to stay there on the bridge

Chorus

Just cause all these bridges
Can be burned
Doesn't mean
You're done with lessons learned

Fantasy is Dying

Of course, Of course
Set the stars to fall
Take the earth by her reigns
Flood to Hell all her halls
We won't ever be again

Called me up late last night
Dr. is everything alright?
He said to me
Sorry to say
But the fantasy is dying
Burnt away

So when she looks
When she says stay
I can't except her words
Are they real, or is it fake
I know, we'll never be again

Run away with me now
Close my eyes as you fade tonight...
All I ever wanted
Is inside of your eyes in mine
The fantasy is dying again

[poetry]

Dealate

I believe
I believe
I'll be leaving
When you see the stars starting to shine
When the moon shines with reflected glory
Over the decaying day
I'll be gone

It may just cost
Everything
Tear away from this plane
Divested interest
It may just be
Growing against the grain

Away
Away
Find a way
To shed the skin of this former life
To shred all the evidence of losses
I will find a way
I'll be gone

Galvani

And so you feel
That you failed
In all your life you tried
You never were
Anything more
Actually you were less
And it's almost a relief
Now
To bid your cares goodbye
But
I...

You awaken the scientist in me

You're better off
It was your fault
Right?
Or else your wife's
Right?
You never became
Your full potentiality
Well they'll have you hung
Yes, but
My nephew will see to
Will help you see too
The truth in full
Locked away in you

You awaken the scientist in me
Crawling underneath the skin
Webs of electricity
You awaken in me...
Like a bad dream

You set in motion
And I
Set in motion
The evidence we both need
You lived your life
But never felt alive
Well you'll see
What you awaken in me

You awaken the scientist in me
Electrodes in my head
Spike electricity
You awaken in me...
Like a bad dream

Mattoid

Quiet kids for serial killers
And Bullies make good preachers
Inside every arsonist
Lies a better teacher

Sister Margaret Morgan teaches
Thou shalt, wilt thou, kneeling
The hardest thing she never learned
Was how to keep believing

In my place
Put me in my place
Put me in my place
Where we belong

Idealists are hostages
To their train of thought
The ghosts of celebrities
Now can all be bought

In my place
Put me in my place

Comes the Dawn

Comes the blood rush to my head...
And I still hear
Voices calling out
Near the trees I make my bed
In the dark
I lay me down

Just a shadow past midnight
For a second
Catch my breath
Feel the running down of time
Trying hard
Just to sense

Run my hands through the tall grass
Fields of time sewn in tares
To where you always said you'd haunt
But it seems you aren't there

Now where am I to go?
Staying here
In this field
Will I become the ghost?
By your thoughts
I come to kneel

Run my hands through the tall grass
Fields of time sewn in tares
To where you always said you'd haunt
But it seems you aren't there

Number's Up

I don't wanna die live alone
Be exist without a tone
Feel the weight of Heaven
Rest upon my naked chest
I don't want this Hell
Or remain an empty shell
Be a happy hypocrite
With words I can't repent

All the faces that I see seem to be overlooking me
Daring me to take that step and further my oblivion
Hold me close
Hold me now don't look away
Were we where we mind?

I don't want to strengthen break
Stand up for the standings sake
Have my heart handed
Back before it's even spent
I don't want the stars
Or kingdoms wide and far
Just to sing myself to sleep
and slip off to never dream

All the faces that I see seem to be overlooking me
Daring me to take that step and further my oblivion
Run away with me
Run away and let's stay gone
Just don't look away
Just don't look away
Were we where we mind?

Firefly

Firefly,
Don't let your light
Blow out
Don't let your sky
fall down
Don't let your light...

Everyone's got their own
Little everyone
And all around I feel
Feel alone tonight
When the air fills your lungs
Long enough to catch it's breath
And storm out again
When you take that first step
Realize,
You're out on your own tonight

Don't let the light
Blow out
Don't let the sky
Fall down
Don't let your light...
Firefly

All the places I could go
Seem out of place
And in the back of my mind
I feel alone tonight
When your heart skips a beat
Because of something it has seen
Could this be love?
Go on and take that first step
Realize,
You're still on your own tonight

Don't let your light
Blow out
Don't let your sky
Fall down
Don't let your light...
Firely

Well it's you
and me
Just you and me
Together here
You and me
Just you and me
Firefly

Not Left Behind

Easy does it now
With steady hands
Where you set it
How you handle her
Gentle, careful now
There's nothing left
But respect to all
That we lay rest

And even if you never come around here
Past today
In simple lines
All we've loved
Not left behind

Speak the words
But say them carefully
How you send her now
To just our dreams
And don't talk to me
As if you knew her well
Reciting idioms
For Heaven and Hell

My heart is breaking
Like the flowers
Making waves upon her chest
All we've seen
All we've loved
Laid to rest

Through An Eye Darkly

She closed the door
She seems a million miles away
Just standing there
She's only nine years old
But her eyes read seventeen
I guess she's seen too much
I guess she's lost herself
Today

I met her in a Mirror
Seemed so curious to see
Standing there
Just looking back at me

I met her in a Mirror...

I saw him bow his head
In anger or from grief
On his knees
He speaks with candle flame
As blood runs down his cheek
I guess he should've known
I guess he lost himself
Today

I met him in a Mirror
Seemed so curious to see
Kneeling there
Just looking back at me

I met him in a Mirror...

All now
Where you go,
Mary dear?
Gone to find my soul
Oh no
Where you go,
Mary dear?
Gone to wear my home

I dropped my eyes low
Felt the thunder fill the walls
As I stood there
I tried to wish away
The worst of my bad dreams
I guess I think too much
I guess I lost myself
Today

They saw me in a Mirror
So curious to see
Looking back at me

I saw me in a Mirror...

More Than You've Known

I don't write
But I write for you
This cozy little dismal narative
Colidescope of burnt out truths
I don't write
But I'll see you soon

I don't sing
Like I did before
For the choir's unattentively
Wrapped in old Metaphors
I don't sing
But I'll sing once more

Locked inside her hours
Painted faces like clocks
Standing there shaken
Cast upon the rocks
Silenced by visions
What cannot be, is set
The only reality I'm facing
Hasn't even happened yet

All that's left

If, all else fails
We still have the
Last moments
Gleamed from a corrupted youth
Like silver drips on a spiders web
All that's left
Is not left up to us

When, things ran dry
The peace was held
For awhile
Inside the hope you had
For another chance tomorrow
But all that's left
Is now gone

Leaving again
Come back with me
And we'll be
One more time, we
Will stand as one
In time

So simple a thing
Playing all fall
Down we go
Till we rip apart at
What seemingly kept us close
And all that's left
Isn't right

Know this...

In the minds
And on the tongues
A thousand lines
And verses hung
Of simple words
And those made wrong
Of bitter silence
Growing long

Trippin'
Trippin' day to day
Run along,
Run along and play
Yeah, go and play
Sometimes it's the things you don't say

Construction of a Flower

Lines and passage
Through the night lights burning brightly
Stars and figures
Along the summit's edge

Kept and holding
Stark reminder of thoughts worth binding
If for only
A moments peace

Running
Trace the coridoor
Fingertips along a cool walls edge
Falling
Trace the figures
Kneeling in a trance

Slender shoulders
Graceful movements in earthern casing
Folded petals
Dripping fresh rain down

Hiding under
The vestments of parchment housing
Stilled beneath
The quiet ground

Seeds and struggle
Faith that grows in the ground up rubble
Eyes turned upwards
Faith turned in...

Yes

And yet I love you
And yet it seems I have no choice
The controls
Are switch heavy
And I've been wrestling against currents
That want to direct me true
Come again
I want to go with you

I left you
And you let me leave
The choices
Are all empty
Longing only for the could've beens
With nothing left to prove
Come again
I want to go with you

My dearest feeling
Fresh with truth
Come again
I want to go with you