Fantasy is Dying

Of course, Of course
Set the stars to fall
Take the earth by her reigns
Flood to Hell all her halls
We won't ever be again

Called me up late last night
Dr. is everything alright?
He said to me
Sorry to say
But the fantasy is dying
Burnt away

So when she looks
When she says stay
I can't except her words
Are they real, or is it fake
I know, we'll never be again

Run away with me now
Close my eyes as you fade tonight...
All I ever wanted
Is inside of your eyes in mine
The fantasy is dying again

[poetry]

Dealate

I believe
I believe
I'll be leaving
When you see the stars starting to shine
When the moon shines with reflected glory
Over the decaying day
I'll be gone

It may just cost
Everything
Tear away from this plane
Divested interest
It may just be
Growing against the grain

Away
Away
Find a way
To shed the skin of this former life
To shred all the evidence of losses
I will find a way
I'll be gone

Galvani

And so you feel
That you failed
In all your life you tried
You never were
Anything more
Actually you were less
And it's almost a relief
Now
To bid your cares goodbye
But
I...

You awaken the scientist in me

You're better off
It was your fault
Right?
Or else your wife's
Right?
You never became
Your full potentiality
Well they'll have you hung
Yes, but
My nephew will see to
Will help you see too
The truth in full
Locked away in you

You awaken the scientist in me
Crawling underneath the skin
Webs of electricity
You awaken in me...
Like a bad dream

You set in motion
And I
Set in motion
The evidence we both need
You lived your life
But never felt alive
Well you'll see
What you awaken in me

You awaken the scientist in me
Electrodes in my head
Spike electricity
You awaken in me...
Like a bad dream

Mattoid

Quiet kids for serial killers
And Bullies make good preachers
Inside every arsonist
Lies a better teacher

Sister Margaret Morgan teaches
Thou shalt, wilt thou, kneeling
The hardest thing she never learned
Was how to keep believing

In my place
Put me in my place
Put me in my place
Where we belong

Idealists are hostages
To their train of thought
The ghosts of celebrities
Now can all be bought

In my place
Put me in my place

Comes the Dawn

Comes the blood rush to my head...
And I still hear
Voices calling out
Near the trees I make my bed
In the dark
I lay me down

Just a shadow past midnight
For a second
Catch my breath
Feel the running down of time
Trying hard
Just to sense

Run my hands through the tall grass
Fields of time sewn in tares
To where you always said you'd haunt
But it seems you aren't there

Now where am I to go?
Staying here
In this field
Will I become the ghost?
By your thoughts
I come to kneel

Run my hands through the tall grass
Fields of time sewn in tares
To where you always said you'd haunt
But it seems you aren't there

Number's Up

I don't wanna die live alone
Be exist without a tone
Feel the weight of Heaven
Rest upon my naked chest
I don't want this Hell
Or remain an empty shell
Be a happy hypocrite
With words I can't repent

All the faces that I see seem to be overlooking me
Daring me to take that step and further my oblivion
Hold me close
Hold me now don't look away
Were we where we mind?

I don't want to strengthen break
Stand up for the standings sake
Have my heart handed
Back before it's even spent
I don't want the stars
Or kingdoms wide and far
Just to sing myself to sleep
and slip off to never dream

All the faces that I see seem to be overlooking me
Daring me to take that step and further my oblivion
Run away with me
Run away and let's stay gone
Just don't look away
Just don't look away
Were we where we mind?

Firefly

Firefly,
Don't let your light
Blow out
Don't let your sky
fall down
Don't let your light...

Everyone's got their own
Little everyone
And all around I feel
Feel alone tonight
When the air fills your lungs
Long enough to catch it's breath
And storm out again
When you take that first step
Realize,
You're out on your own tonight

Don't let the light
Blow out
Don't let the sky
Fall down
Don't let your light...
Firefly

All the places I could go
Seem out of place
And in the back of my mind
I feel alone tonight
When your heart skips a beat
Because of something it has seen
Could this be love?
Go on and take that first step
Realize,
You're still on your own tonight

Don't let your light
Blow out
Don't let your sky
Fall down
Don't let your light...
Firely

Well it's you
and me
Just you and me
Together here
You and me
Just you and me
Firefly

Not Left Behind

Easy does it now
With steady hands
Where you set it
How you handle her
Gentle, careful now
There's nothing left
But respect to all
That we lay rest

And even if you never come around here
Past today
In simple lines
All we've loved
Not left behind

Speak the words
But say them carefully
How you send her now
To just our dreams
And don't talk to me
As if you knew her well
Reciting idioms
For Heaven and Hell

My heart is breaking
Like the flowers
Making waves upon her chest
All we've seen
All we've loved
Laid to rest

Through An Eye Darkly

She closed the door
She seems a million miles away
Just standing there
She's only nine years old
But her eyes read seventeen
I guess she's seen too much
I guess she's lost herself
Today

I met her in a Mirror
Seemed so curious to see
Standing there
Just looking back at me

I met her in a Mirror...

I saw him bow his head
In anger or from grief
On his knees
He speaks with candle flame
As blood runs down his cheek
I guess he should've known
I guess he lost himself
Today

I met him in a Mirror
Seemed so curious to see
Kneeling there
Just looking back at me

I met him in a Mirror...

All now
Where you go,
Mary dear?
Gone to find my soul
Oh no
Where you go,
Mary dear?
Gone to wear my home

I dropped my eyes low
Felt the thunder fill the walls
As I stood there
I tried to wish away
The worst of my bad dreams
I guess I think too much
I guess I lost myself
Today

They saw me in a Mirror
So curious to see
Looking back at me

I saw me in a Mirror...

More Than You've Known

I don't write
But I write for you
This cozy little dismal narative
Colidescope of burnt out truths
I don't write
But I'll see you soon

I don't sing
Like I did before
For the choir's unattentively
Wrapped in old Metaphors
I don't sing
But I'll sing once more

Locked inside her hours
Painted faces like clocks
Standing there shaken
Cast upon the rocks
Silenced by visions
What cannot be, is set
The only reality I'm facing
Hasn't even happened yet

All that's left

If, all else fails
We still have the
Last moments
Gleamed from a corrupted youth
Like silver drips on a spiders web
All that's left
Is not left up to us

When, things ran dry
The peace was held
For awhile
Inside the hope you had
For another chance tomorrow
But all that's left
Is now gone

Leaving again
Come back with me
And we'll be
One more time, we
Will stand as one
In time

So simple a thing
Playing all fall
Down we go
Till we rip apart at
What seemingly kept us close
And all that's left
Isn't right

Know this...

In the minds
And on the tongues
A thousand lines
And verses hung
Of simple words
And those made wrong
Of bitter silence
Growing long

Trippin'
Trippin' day to day
Run along,
Run along and play
Yeah, go and play
Sometimes it's the things you don't say

Construction of a Flower

Lines and passage
Through the night lights burning brightly
Stars and figures
Along the summit's edge

Kept and holding
Stark reminder of thoughts worth binding
If for only
A moments peace

Running
Trace the coridoor
Fingertips along a cool walls edge
Falling
Trace the figures
Kneeling in a trance

Slender shoulders
Graceful movements in earthern casing
Folded petals
Dripping fresh rain down

Hiding under
The vestments of parchment housing
Stilled beneath
The quiet ground

Seeds and struggle
Faith that grows in the ground up rubble
Eyes turned upwards
Faith turned in...

Yes

And yet I love you
And yet it seems I have no choice
The controls
Are switch heavy
And I've been wrestling against currents
That want to direct me true
Come again
I want to go with you

I left you
And you let me leave
The choices
Are all empty
Longing only for the could've beens
With nothing left to prove
Come again
I want to go with you

My dearest feeling
Fresh with truth
Come again
I want to go with you

How it is

I find it hard at times to understand...

How the music fades into the sunset
How the clouds burst in unrest
How the laughter lingers still

How the ground gives up
To the harvester a full cup
How just going through the motions
Can be more than overkill

Most of all I find it hard to understand
How it truly is that the music writes the band

And in the silence wonder still...

How the movement foreshadows
The Chaos that follows
How the air we breathe
Turns to liquid in the lungs

How the skyscrapers manage
To paint a lovely garden
How the smallest thing
Can make an old man feel young

But most of all I find it difficult to understand
How it happens that the music writes the man

Ice

When the last vestiges of bitterness betrays
The feelings you can't repent
In the stillness of your heart you feel
The coolness in the rent
Destroyed and never full again
Broken and fallen apart
You used up all your second chances
And finished your restarts

Track 4

Something soft to lay on
Something sweet to drink
All the lights turned down
And I listen for you
In the scratches of old tracks

I lay back
Eyes closed tight
The fire mellowing down
And Hear you call
From the scratches of old tracks

Falling deeply
Into the old familiar
Dreaming of falling down
Joining you there
In the scratches of old tracks

The Undoing

Well, I tried
And no one can say that I didn't
I tripped the day
And set off the night
Now the fires
Burning backwards
Are a worry
And the headaches I have
Don't leave without a fight

But that's alright

Well, I know
The greatest trials hang the jury
When they judge not
The failures of monsters in men
Still I falter
Should I stop her?
In the shadows
Drinking in the music
Of way back when

Or let it all just end

I saw you laugh
I heard you sigh
I felt you felt
You wanted to die
But we're both just the same anyway

My Spaces

On the street, next your 'next to my street'
Is a house that is ancient in ways
It has grown from the feelings I once held
In my dead end days

In the driveway you can see me driving
In a car that was once ours but mine
You can come along if you'd still want too
To go back in time

Under books
An edges of carpet
Beneath shadows
Dusty and worn
Lays a token
I once had worth stealing
In my dead end days

In a picture that's hard now to picture
My reflection is there under book
You can stare into me staring back out
If you dare to look

Hero

Drinking back the endless praise
Of memories that never fade
Youth and tirless ambition
Casting tall
Over used ammunition

Your heart broke at age 15
When you first began to see
That all you were dying to hold true
Didn't hold
To what others saw as you

Now the moments pass as days
AS does does glory wrapped in haze
They broke your vestiges of youth
And condemned you
To living out their truth