[Poem] Shadows of the Heart

The powder burns
The lights in my eyes
I see the beauty threatening my mind.
The sky's on fire
A war of peace
The faces mingling, happy and grief.

This blade is dull
Can't cut through the mesh
Just leaving chem trails
Deep in my flesh

The night is right
Gentle and warm
Can't recconcile, the pain in my heart
I see you 17
I see you tonight
Like fireworks staining my mind
You're still there

This blade is dull
I can't break the skin
Hearts and regret
Can't cut away the sin

This blade is dull
My mind has no rest
Just leaving track marks
Burried in my flesh

[Poem] Love and Sleepwalking

These days I feel over all the time
Same line I tripped last life
Can't quite break away
From the infinite finite

Sometimes I always dream alone
In the dark
In the sky
In the shadows
In your eyes
I guess it's a rythm I never quite beat
Never got the hang of falling
In and out of love and sleep

I'm always in the way of myself
My mind a burden on my health
Feels like it did last night
Riding the infinite finite

Somewhere I'm not quite there
Falling forward
Falling back
Falling silence
Fall in cracks
I guess I never got the hang of talking
Wading through the waking
In and out of love and sleepwalking

So Cliche

Whisper sweet nothings for a moment or two
The end, the beginning
The world stops for you
Tell me you'll love me 'til the end of time
Swim me an ocean or a mountain to climb, so high

Oh I feel so high
The breath of the wind
Lovers and friends
Let's begin
To engage
A nightly romance
It all seems like fate

And as I stand here in the falling cliche
I stop to cry out your cliche
Trying hard to find the right words
Though I can right words
They all seem to say
They all seem the same
So cliche

Hold your head high, and keep your chin up
The roses, the letters
They all point to love
The stars speak of soulmates, and not just some fling
Let's live for today cause tomorrow may bring, endings

Oh I see the ending
The credits will role
The screen will fade out
And you know
All the lights
Will awaken us all
From dreams back to life

And as I stand here in the falling cliche
I stop to cry out your cliche
Trying hard to find the right words
Though I can write words
They all seem to say
They all seem the same
So cliche

I don't know what lies beyond the day
I'd change but the world'll stay the same
All of my words inked from my heart
Giving life to the art
They all seem the same
They all seem to say
So cliche

Sadness

Can't look her in the eyes
Don't know where to start
Pick up the knife
Place it back in my heart

She's pretty like sunlight
Dancing through rain
Laid back and laughing
Over darker days

I'm growing older
Time in my way
Second chances hold nothing
Dreams only strain
The shadows of midnight
Washes out the day's
And I'm keeping only thoughts
That drive me far away

Take a step back
Further from grace
Sometimes salvation comes
In the growing space

I'm growing older
Time in my way
Second chances hold nothing
Dreams only strain
The shadows of midnight
Washes out the hue
And I'm keeping only thoughts
That drive me far from you

Best of the worst of times

I heard your father left
Your mother's getting sick
I heard your dog ran away last night
I know the pressure's mounting
Can hear your heart pounding
It's ok, I've got a shoulder, cry

Called me up late last night
Said she didn't know what was wrong with life
Said through tears, she'd be alright
But I wouldn't hear it
Said she shouldn't be alone, when she's like this
Said I would be there in a little bit

She's so much prettier
When her masscara's ruined
The tears offset her eyes
With a perfect blue
So for better or worse now baby
Here's to bad times, may they
Always stay

She says, she says

She says,
I never bought into this world
How could I be comfortable
On a planet that doesn't have cup holders?
And sometimes I feel so much madness in the air
I have to get in the car and drive nowhere

She says,
This life is too confusing
How am I supposed to get the hang
Of an existence that has no manual included?
And sometimes I feel so suffecated everywhere
I have to turn up the white noise, so I can get some air

abstained dress

Bury my head in the lone prarie
Someone's in the mirror and he's looking at me
I think there's something dark in his eyes
And I don't like what he's saying 'bout mine

Mother's not home, daddy's not here
Just a balsa wood ceiling and an ice cold beer
This old girl don't care where we go
In the back of the van at the punk rock show

Someone said to me the other day
Something about her daughter was late
Remember when etiquette's in doubt
Tip your high school sweet heart on your way out

Bury my mind in chemistry
Someone's in the mirror and he's looking at me
I don't think I like what I see
And I don't think he cares for me

By Night [poem]

Eyes bright
Big as the starlight
She shines down
And I drown.

In her face
I get lost in amaze...

Sweet but, bitter the seasons that come to pass
Composing, whistful lyrics for all that has
Something like to the skyline
Born again every night

Bright eyes
Fueled by twilight
They lie down
And I drown.

In her face
I get lost in amaze...

Retracted

When's it ever going to end?
When will I get to breathe again?
I just want to call it quits.
I just want to be numb to it.
When will this end?

What if failure's all I have?
What if that's my only friend?
I don't want some cosmic truth.
I don't want to pine away for youth.
What if it never ends?

Sitting, watching a moth
On a lazy nighted window sill
Powder dust for wings
Just hungering for the light
From the outside in
From the inside I
From the outside in
I'm on the inside out

When will it be enough?
When will they leave me alone?
I just want to sit for a moment
I just want a second of peace
When will I get my relief?

What if I don't want to finish
All of my bad deeds?
What if I just want
So desperately?
What if I hand out
All that I've dealt in?
What if I give you
Everything to
Quit?

Aberration

In another world
The table's turned
You're in love
I the one that spurned
In another world
We've called it quits
A messy divorce
Forever split
While in another world
We've not yet met
We'll never meet
That's the end of it
In another world
I'm killing you
While in another world
You're killing me too.

But somewhere
I know
That we are
Are so
In love

In another world
It's suicide
You'll know me only
As a day's headlines
In another world
We're on the street
A quick glance
Is all we'll see
While in another world
It's your wedding day
I'm the minister
As you're given away
In another world
I'm haunting you
While in another world
You're haunting me too

But somewhere
I know
That we are
Are so
In love

Behind the Covers

Just cause there are bridges
In life to be crossed
Doesn't mean
You're not better staying where you are

Just cause you don't need
Anyone's advise
Doesn't mean
That they're either wrong or right

The earth turns
To keep you going round
You have to stand
So they can knock you down
Fight hard
But not all battles can be won
They told you lies
So they could keep you young

Just cause the heart
Knows what it wants
Doesn't mean
You're better moving on

Just cause they're all
Leaping off the edge
Doesn't mean
It's right to stay there on the bridge

Chorus

Just cause all these bridges
Can be burned
Doesn't mean
You're done with lessons learned

Fantasy is Dying

Of course, Of course
Set the stars to fall
Take the earth by her reigns
Flood to Hell all her halls
We won't ever be again

Called me up late last night
Dr. is everything alright?
He said to me
Sorry to say
But the fantasy is dying
Burnt away

So when she looks
When she says stay
I can't except her words
Are they real, or is it fake
I know, we'll never be again

Run away with me now
Close my eyes as you fade tonight...
All I ever wanted
Is inside of your eyes in mine
The fantasy is dying again

[poetry]

Dealate

I believe
I believe
I'll be leaving
When you see the stars starting to shine
When the moon shines with reflected glory
Over the decaying day
I'll be gone

It may just cost
Everything
Tear away from this plane
Divested interest
It may just be
Growing against the grain

Away
Away
Find a way
To shed the skin of this former life
To shred all the evidence of losses
I will find a way
I'll be gone

Galvani

And so you feel
That you failed
In all your life you tried
You never were
Anything more
Actually you were less
And it's almost a relief
Now
To bid your cares goodbye
But
I...

You awaken the scientist in me

You're better off
It was your fault
Right?
Or else your wife's
Right?
You never became
Your full potentiality
Well they'll have you hung
Yes, but
My nephew will see to
Will help you see too
The truth in full
Locked away in you

You awaken the scientist in me
Crawling underneath the skin
Webs of electricity
You awaken in me...
Like a bad dream

You set in motion
And I
Set in motion
The evidence we both need
You lived your life
But never felt alive
Well you'll see
What you awaken in me

You awaken the scientist in me
Electrodes in my head
Spike electricity
You awaken in me...
Like a bad dream

Mattoid

Quiet kids for serial killers
And Bullies make good preachers
Inside every arsonist
Lies a better teacher

Sister Margaret Morgan teaches
Thou shalt, wilt thou, kneeling
The hardest thing she never learned
Was how to keep believing

In my place
Put me in my place
Put me in my place
Where we belong

Idealists are hostages
To their train of thought
The ghosts of celebrities
Now can all be bought

In my place
Put me in my place

Comes the Dawn

Comes the blood rush to my head...
And I still hear
Voices calling out
Near the trees I make my bed
In the dark
I lay me down

Just a shadow past midnight
For a second
Catch my breath
Feel the running down of time
Trying hard
Just to sense

Run my hands through the tall grass
Fields of time sewn in tares
To where you always said you'd haunt
But it seems you aren't there

Now where am I to go?
Staying here
In this field
Will I become the ghost?
By your thoughts
I come to kneel

Run my hands through the tall grass
Fields of time sewn in tares
To where you always said you'd haunt
But it seems you aren't there

Number's Up

I don't wanna die live alone
Be exist without a tone
Feel the weight of Heaven
Rest upon my naked chest
I don't want this Hell
Or remain an empty shell
Be a happy hypocrite
With words I can't repent

All the faces that I see seem to be overlooking me
Daring me to take that step and further my oblivion
Hold me close
Hold me now don't look away
Were we where we mind?

I don't want to strengthen break
Stand up for the standings sake
Have my heart handed
Back before it's even spent
I don't want the stars
Or kingdoms wide and far
Just to sing myself to sleep
and slip off to never dream

All the faces that I see seem to be overlooking me
Daring me to take that step and further my oblivion
Run away with me
Run away and let's stay gone
Just don't look away
Just don't look away
Were we where we mind?

Firefly

Firefly,
Don't let your light
Blow out
Don't let your sky
fall down
Don't let your light...

Everyone's got their own
Little everyone
And all around I feel
Feel alone tonight
When the air fills your lungs
Long enough to catch it's breath
And storm out again
When you take that first step
Realize,
You're out on your own tonight

Don't let the light
Blow out
Don't let the sky
Fall down
Don't let your light...
Firefly

All the places I could go
Seem out of place
And in the back of my mind
I feel alone tonight
When your heart skips a beat
Because of something it has seen
Could this be love?
Go on and take that first step
Realize,
You're still on your own tonight

Don't let your light
Blow out
Don't let your sky
Fall down
Don't let your light...
Firely

Well it's you
and me
Just you and me
Together here
You and me
Just you and me
Firefly

Not Left Behind

Easy does it now
With steady hands
Where you set it
How you handle her
Gentle, careful now
There's nothing left
But respect to all
That we lay rest

And even if you never come around here
Past today
In simple lines
All we've loved
Not left behind

Speak the words
But say them carefully
How you send her now
To just our dreams
And don't talk to me
As if you knew her well
Reciting idioms
For Heaven and Hell

My heart is breaking
Like the flowers
Making waves upon her chest
All we've seen
All we've loved
Laid to rest

Through An Eye Darkly

She closed the door
She seems a million miles away
Just standing there
She's only nine years old
But her eyes read seventeen
I guess she's seen too much
I guess she's lost herself
Today

I met her in a Mirror
Seemed so curious to see
Standing there
Just looking back at me

I met her in a Mirror...

I saw him bow his head
In anger or from grief
On his knees
He speaks with candle flame
As blood runs down his cheek
I guess he should've known
I guess he lost himself
Today

I met him in a Mirror
Seemed so curious to see
Kneeling there
Just looking back at me

I met him in a Mirror...

All now
Where you go,
Mary dear?
Gone to find my soul
Oh no
Where you go,
Mary dear?
Gone to wear my home

I dropped my eyes low
Felt the thunder fill the walls
As I stood there
I tried to wish away
The worst of my bad dreams
I guess I think too much
I guess I lost myself
Today

They saw me in a Mirror
So curious to see
Looking back at me

I saw me in a Mirror...