[Poem] You and I

Love in the time of my last suicide
Where my end justifies the means each time
Always leaves me wishing for a last refrain

Born again in a cold November
Raised in the city by a kindly stranger
Just to find that I'd arrived too late

You and I are always yes and
You and I are always yes and
You and I are always yesterday

Woke too late, just to find you sleeping
A handmaiden's daughter barely speaking
Married to a man who was married to the game

I spoke quietly, you don't remember
How it was that last December?
You just shrugged and then you turned away

You and I are always yes and
You and I are always yes and
You and I are always yesterday

Maybe there will be tomorrow
Maybe we will be tomorrow
Maybe there will be no tomorrow

[Poetry] Slowly I turned

The show must go on
From a father without a son
Funny men aren't meant to cry
When the radio's turned on

Who's on first?
Baby don't fear
Wherever you are
You're going to hear

When the starlight shines
You're the only thing on my mind
Gonna run away with vaudeville
Gonna take my time

The show must go on
That's how it's got to be
Wherever he is tonight
I want him to hear me

[Poetry] Josephine

Josephine, my love
My sweet
Don't you understand?
Can't I make you see?
This is all just a dream

Josephine, my love
My dear
There's nothing to see
Nothing to fear
There's nothing here

Hold your head high
Take a deep breath
Run your fingers over the sky
Let go of the rest, and say goodnight

[Poetry] Recompense

This all seems so familiar Do we need all this extra weight? Buried, so we should leave it behind. Just leave me behind Dance caliber, sweet blue, behind her eyes Diamonds on cheek, sparkle and shine He holds her softly, rocking where they lay Light shifting, bright to ashen grey Tin shoulders rise and fall Stand to meet the coming tide The flow of tears that tear away The tiers and ties that'd bind and sway This all seems so familiar Do we need all this extra weight? What's buried should stay buried. Just leave me... One more refrain, before we leave One more, one less we

[Poetry] Shadows of Eternity

I am cut
Walking on the earth above you
Walking on the sky above me
You are deep

We are
All that we were ever meant to be
We are
Shadows on eternity

I am cut
Laying here all alone tonight
Laying here quiet by my side
You are sleep

We are
All that we were ever meant to be
We are
Shadows of eternity

[Poetry] 20

Doesn't matter
Doesn't matter what you try
Doesn't matter cause when you die
You'll find it's not the what, but the why


Little laden, onion lady
Dangling from a line
Heaven waiting for a sign
'It is mine. It is mine.'

Doesn't matter
Doesn't matter who you know
Doesn't matter 'cause when you go
It's not who you know, but who you don't

[Poetry] 19

At 10:45 it was worth it to note
That I was barely alive, I was barely afloat
It took all my drive just to get me here
All my life just to make it clear

By 12:41 I was in a state
Sitting table crossed from your flowering hate
You told tales out of nursery to keep me blind
Tales of delinquency to make up my mind

In 2033 we'd watch the future unfold
But if we're still alive I'd be 50 years old
Sitting with you
Letting you talk
Keeping my eyes
Glued to the clock

18

I'm sorry if I didn't dare
To say what's on my mind
Sorry if it takes twice as long
To circle round the sun now

I know where I went wrong
I swear I thought we were
But oh, no
Friends are forever
I think that's written in stone
Believe me
I know

I'm sorry if you thought
I didn't think of you
Sorry if everything moves
Just a little more slowly now

17

Hey the world might end next month
Then again I might just take a trip
See what's over there

Fallin' back
Into quicksand
Drowning in an afterthought

Hey the world might spin back in time
Or we could just sit in for awhile
See what's on TV

Swimmin' through
Dark matter
Becoming one wave afterthought

Hey,
Dimensions open everyday
Portals happen
Black holes rip a part of life
But let's flip through the channels
See what else is on

Scopophobia

Over in the corner, what do I see?
A little shadow figure
Sulking miserably
His head, his heart, his body darkly
His eyes that sadly follow starkly
Have never looked upon the light
Have never filled up with delight
A somber life for one to lead
To exist but to never be
Never be, and what's more
Never lived, and never born

Over in the corner what do I see?
A piece of the picture
A sad kind of dream
What's now, what wasn't, what will never be
What was is only a dim memory
Trappings of scarlet lining the skies
Thoughts like telarian, trapping the mind
Forever broken at the seams
Like a disenchanted dream
A pitiful half painted scene
From an artist who has gone to sleep

Mistake

Maybe we made a mistake
But at least we made it together
Misery loves company
And it makes me feel better
Just to say

Tonight all the stars
Might rain down on us
And the oceans may wave
Even as they rush
Buildings might topple
And mountains break
But at least we're together
In our mistake

Maybe we blew it
But it's alright this time
Because to err is human
And together is divine

[Poetry] Over You

Wake up and I go 'round again 

Same old, same old 

Ask me how I've been of late 

Same old, same old 

Returning the questions to you 

Same old, same old 

Same old motions we go through 

Same old, same old 

I've been warned and warned myself 

Thought it through over and again 

Everything says it's time to move on 

Everyone says the end's the end 

Time to just accept the truth 

But in truth, I'm over getting over you

[Poem] Where the world was

The water tastes dry
As she sits on the park bench
Mouthing words no one hears
Tears filling her green eyes
Cigarettes for safety belts
Stop her from crashing into him

They float away

Paper-mâché whales
Swimming through stars
And the backseat of cars

Silver on the edges of leaves
Leaves the tree and falls
Spiraling down into her soul
Where she feels his hand
Feint whispers beg thoughts
Of cloudy nights and six year olds

A Thousand Nights

So long, old familiar ways
Gentle touch, softer grace
Ushering, the brand new day
Smile fading from my face

Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand smiles
To a thousand-thousand sunrise
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes
Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand cries
To a thousand-thousand deep sighs
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes

So long, to the old times
Memory stained cheeks
Now begins the forever
Meeting only in our dreams

Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand smiles
To a thousand-thousand sunrise
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes
Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand cries
To a thousand-thousand deep sighs
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes

Standing

there are no more moments
and I feel this would be a good time
time is always too short
when you're running out of it
a lot like sugar in that respect
always in the pantry until you're ready to cook

i guess I'm trying to set straight
records I don't actually care about
whom did what to who
or who did who
matters not in the grandless scheme of far out things
matters even less to those involved
but sometimes the best conversations
are like tires spinning in the mud

i should probably start over
in most cases I probably would
but the earth is spinning further from the sun every year
and I'm just trying to keep my bearings
til I'm ready to fly off
or would that be falling?
there's no bottom or top
so I guess what I'm asking is
if I stand down, am I standing up?

[Poem} Dying Alone

I hate the things I've become in your eyes
The guilt in my lungs dripping with lies

Don't stand too close to the fanning flame
The little flickers tearing down my faith

I'm not a shadow now, I know I'm just a fake
Ashamed of, and always counting on my breaks

You don't condone this; condemn me...
But I'm a runaway, running far away

I hear them say to me:
You'll die alone
But that don't scare me
Cause I know I'm going home
The only thing that really freaks me out
Is the thought of living a lifetime without...

Without your presence
In my life

You can't condone this; don't condemn me please
I'm just a runaway, who wants, to run
Away from me

Don't want to live, alone...

[Poetry] The Steady Decline

Afraid, to make a change
You stay there
Waiting for someone to reach out
To meet you
Halfway is better than seeing
The whole truth

Gotta turn around
Just a slap in the face now
Gotta face facts
After all, roads you've been down
Starting to make you see
You're on the steady decline

Deluding yourself
Into thinking
Your ambitious and chasing down
All of your dreams
Confusing your goals
With fantasy

Gotta turn around
Just a slap in the face now
Gotta face facts
After all, roads you've been down
Starting to make you see
You're on the steady decline

[Poetry] Never ending Night

I hear you speak,
So quietly
From out of a dream
Just out of my reach

The end is past
Sometime last week
And kept on going
While I was asleep

I sit back in the dark
Seeing through my eyelids closed
Hoping to wake up
From bitter sweet abandon
Into tranquil repose
To look up from my bed
And see the sun shining bright
A quick and painless death
For a never ending night

The stars they shine
Like echoes of peace
A cancer of hope
I'm remembering

Patiently, a whisper,
Haunting me
A night never ending
The world walking sleep

[Poem] Shadows of the Heart

The powder burns
The lights in my eyes
I see the beauty threatening my mind.
The sky's on fire
A war of peace
The faces mingling, happy and grief.

This blade is dull
Can't cut through the mesh
Just leaving chem trails
Deep in my flesh

The night is right
Gentle and warm
Can't recconcile, the pain in my heart
I see you 17
I see you tonight
Like fireworks staining my mind
You're still there

This blade is dull
I can't break the skin
Hearts and regret
Can't cut away the sin

This blade is dull
My mind has no rest
Just leaving track marks
Burried in my flesh

[Poem] Love and Sleepwalking

These days I feel over all the time
Same line I tripped last life
Can't quite break away
From the infinite finite

Sometimes I always dream alone
In the dark
In the sky
In the shadows
In your eyes
I guess it's a rythm I never quite beat
Never got the hang of falling
In and out of love and sleep

I'm always in the way of myself
My mind a burden on my health
Feels like it did last night
Riding the infinite finite

Somewhere I'm not quite there
Falling forward
Falling back
Falling silence
Fall in cracks
I guess I never got the hang of talking
Wading through the waking
In and out of love and sleepwalking