Monday, October 29, 2007

A Thousand Nights

So long, old familiar ways
Gentle touch, softer grace
Ushering, the brand new day
Smile fading from my face

Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand smiles
To a thousand-thousand sunrise
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes
Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand cries
To a thousand-thousand deep sighs
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes

So long, to the old times
Memory stained cheeks
Now begins the forever
Meeting only in our dreams

Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand smiles
To a thousand-thousand sunrise
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes
Goodbye, goodbye
To a thousand-thousand cries
To a thousand-thousand deep sighs
To a thousand-thousand goodnights, and goodbyes

Standing

there are no more moments
and I feel this would be a good time
time is always too short
when you're running out of it
a lot like sugar in that respect
always in the pantry until you're ready to cook

i guess I'm trying to set straight
records I don't actually care about
whom did what to who
or who did who
matters not in the grandless scheme of far out things
matters even less to those involved
but sometimes the best conversations
are like tires spinning in the mud

i should probably start over
in most cases I probably would
but the earth is spinning further from the sun every year
and I'm just trying to keep my bearings
til I'm ready to fly off
or would that be falling?
there's no bottom or top
so I guess what I'm asking is
if I stand down, am I standing up?

Thursday, October 11, 2007

[Poem} Dying Alone

I hate the things I've become in your eyes
The guilt in my lungs dripping with lies

Don't stand too close to the fanning flame
The little flickers tearing down my faith

I'm not a shadow now, I know I'm just a fake
Ashamed of, and always counting on my breaks

You don't condone this; condemn me...
But I'm a runaway, running far away

I hear them say to me:
You'll die alone
But that don't scare me
Cause I know I'm going home
The only thing that really freaks me out
Is the thought of living a lifetime without...

Without your presence
In my life

You can't condone this; don't condemn me please
I'm just a runaway, who wants, to run
Away from me

Don't want to live, alone...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

[Poetry] The Steady Decline

Afraid, to make a change
You stay there
Waiting for someone to reach out
To meet you
Halfway is better than seeing
The whole truth

Gotta turn around
Just a slap in the face now
Gotta face facts
After all, roads you've been down
Starting to make you see
You're on the steady decline

Deluding yourself
Into thinking
Your ambitious and chasing down
All of your dreams
Confusing your goals
With fantasy

Gotta turn around
Just a slap in the face now
Gotta face facts
After all, roads you've been down
Starting to make you see
You're on the steady decline

Saturday, August 11, 2007

[Poetry] Never ending Night

I hear you speak,
So quietly
From out of a dream
Just out of my reach

The end is past
Sometime last week
And kept on going
While I was asleep

I sit back in the dark
Seeing through my eyelids closed

Hoping to wake up
From bitter sweet abandon
Into tranquil repose
To look up from my bed
And see the sun shining bright
A quick and painless death
For a never ending night


The stars they shine
Like echoes of peace
A cancer of hope
I'm remembering


Patiently, a whisper,
Haunting me
A night never ending
The world walking sleep

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

[Poem] Shadows of the Heart

The powder burns
The lights in my eyes
I see the beauty threatening my mind.
The sky's on fire
A war of peace
The faces mingling, happy and grief.

This blade is dull
Can't cut through the mesh
Just leaving chem trails
Deep in my flesh

The night is right
Gentle and warm
Can't recconcile, the pain in my heart
I see you 17
I see you tonight
Like fireworks staining my mind
You're still there

This blade is dull
I can't break the skin
Hearts and regret
Can't cut away the sin

This blade is dull
My mind has no rest
Just leaving track marks
Burried in my flesh

Friday, June 01, 2007

[Poem] Love and Sleepwalking

These days I feel over all the time
Same line I tripped last life
Can't quite break away
From the infinite finite

Sometimes I always dream alone
In the dark
In the sky
In the shadows
In your eyes
I guess it's a rythm I never quite beat
Never got the hang of falling
In and out of love and sleep

I'm always in the way of myself
My mind a burden on my health
Feels like it did last night
Riding the infinite finite

Somewhere I'm not quite there
Falling forward
Falling back
Falling silence
Fall in cracks
I guess I never got the hang of talking
Wading through the waking
In and out of love and sleepwalking

Friday, May 25, 2007

So Cliche

Whisper sweet nothings for a moment or two
The end, the beginning
The world stops for you
Tell me you'll love me 'til the end of time
Swim me an ocean or a mountain to climb, so high

Oh I feel so high
The breath of the wind
Lovers and friends
Let's begin
To engage
A nightly romance
It all seems like fate

And as I stand here in the falling cliche
I stop to cry out your cliche
Trying hard to find the right words
Though I can right words
They all seem to say
They all seem the same
So cliche

Hold your head high, and keep your chin up
The roses, the letters
They all point to love
The stars speak of soulmates, and not just some fling
Let's live for today cause tomorrow may bring, endings

Oh I see the ending
The credits will role
The screen will fade out
And you know
All the lights
Will awaken us all
From dreams back to life

And as I stand here in the falling cliche
I stop to cry out your cliche
Trying hard to find the right words
Though I can write words
They all seem to say
They all seem the same
So cliche

I don't know what lies beyond the day
I'd change but the world'll stay the same
All of my words inked from my heart
Giving life to the art
They all seem the same
They all seem to say
So cliche

Monday, May 14, 2007

Sadness

Can't look her in the eyes
Don't know where to start
Pick up the knife
Place it back in my heart

She's pretty like sunlight
Dancing through rain
Laid back and laughing
Over darker days

I'm growing older
Time in my way
Second chances hold nothing
Dreams only strain
The shadows of midnight
Washes out the day's
And I'm keeping only thoughts
That drive me far away

Take a step back
Further from grace
Sometimes salvation comes
In the growing space

I'm growing older
Time in my way
Second chances hold nothing
Dreams only strain
The shadows of midnight
Washes out the hue
And I'm keeping only thoughts
That drive me far from you

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Best of the worst of times

I heard your father left
Your mother's getting sick
I heard your dog ran away last night
I know the pressure's mounting
Can hear your heart pounding
It's ok, I've got a shoulder, cry

Called me up late last night
Said she didn't know what was wrong with life
Said through tears, she'd be alright
But I wouldn't hear it
Said she shouldn't be alone, when she's like this
Said I would be there in a little bit

She's so much prettier
When her masscara's ruined
The tears offset her eyes
With a perfect blue
So for better or worse now baby
Here's to bad times, may they
Always stay

She says, she says

She says,
I never bought into this world
How could I be comfortable
On a planet that doesn't have cup holders?
And sometimes I feel so much madness in the air
I have to get in the car and drive nowhere

She says,
This life is too confusing
How am I supposed to get the hang
Of an existence that has no manual included?
And sometimes I feel so suffecated everywhere
I have to turn up the white noise, so I can get some air

abstained dress

Bury my head in the lone prarie
Someone's in the mirror and he's looking at me
I think there's something dark in his eyes
And I don't like what he's saying 'bout mine

Mother's not home, daddy's not here
Just a balsa wood ceiling and an ice cold beer
This old girl don't care where we go
In the back of the van at the punk rock show

Someone said to me the other day
Something about her daughter was late
Remember when etiquette's in doubt
Tip your high school sweet heart on your way out

Bury my mind in chemistry
Someone's in the mirror and he's looking at me
I don't think I like what I see
And I don't think he cares for me

Monday, February 26, 2007

By Night [poem]

Eyes bright
Big as the starlight
She shines down
And I drown.

In her face
I get lost in amaze...

Sweet but, bitter the seasons that come to pass
Composing, whistful lyrics for all that has
Something like to the skyline
Born again every night

Bright eyes
Fueled by twilight
They lie down
And I drown.

In her face
I get lost in amaze...

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Retracted

When's it ever going to end?
When will I get to breathe again?
I just want to call it quits.
I just want to be numb to it.
When will this end?

What if failure's all I have?
What if that's my only friend?
I don't want some cosmic truth.
I don't want to pine away for youth.
What if it never ends?

Sitting, watching a moth
On a lazy nighted window sill
Powder dust for wings
Just hungering for the light
From the outside in
From the inside I
From the outside in
I'm on the inside out

When will it be enough?
When will they leave me alone?
I just want to sit for a moment
I just want a second of peace
When will I get my relief?

What if I don't want to finish
All of my bad deeds?
What if I just want
So desperately?
What if I hand out
All that I've dealt in?
What if I give you
Everything to
Quit?

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Aberration


In another world
The table's turned
You're in love
I the one that spurned
In another world
We've called it quits
A messy divorce
Forever split
While in another world
We've not yet met
We'll never meet
That's the end of it
In another world
I'm killing you
While in another world
You're killing me too.

But somewhere
I know
That we are
Are so
In love

In another world
It's suicide
You'll know me only
As a day's headlines
In another world
We're on the street
A quick glance
Is all we'll see
While in another world
It's your wedding day
I'm the minister
As you're given away
In another world
I'm haunting you
While in another world
You're haunting me too

But somewhere
I know
That we are
Are so
In love